Dear Mom, 2/17/2006
Hey there. I didn’t know any better way to tell you this, I know you’ve been telling me I need to make some changes in my life, that the situation I am in needs to change. It’s been hard to see this situation for what it really is because I’ve felt so stuck. But I finally listened to you, I really did. Running track for my college team has been such a blessing, I started to get a taste of who I use to be before I moved out here and into this terrible relationship. I have met some great friends who really like me and appreciate how silly and fun I am. I talked to one girl who needed a roommate and I was ready to move in with her. I was so excited to move out, move away start my life over again. But this morning I found out I’m pregnant. It came as such a surprise to me. I was finally ready to leave and make a change for the better. This isn’t how it was supposed to happen, Mom? No, I didn’t want my life to be this way. All my life I dreamed of being married and ready for children. I’m not ready right now, I’m barely 22, what do I know about being a mom and raising a baby. And me and Ben? I know that me and him don’t make that great of a couple, let alone being parents together. I was finally ready to start over and make things right in my life. Right now we are living at Ben’s friend's house; how are we even doing to raise a baby? And Track? I’m going to have to stop running track. I’m so devastated to leave the first team I’ve been a part of since High School. Speaking of High School, what will all of my coaches and teachers think? I don’t know how I’m going to do this. This wasn’t going to happen to me, I was going to be the one who finished college, had a career of my own and then started a family. What about all my dreams of becoming a coach? There are so many things I don’t know about. The only thing I know is that I want this baby, I want to be a mom. I’ll do whatever it takes to figure out how to do this, to make this situation the best I can. I promise that I will be the best mom I can to this little baby God blessed me with. I’m sorry mom if I’ve disappointed you and Dad. I love you, mom. Call me when you get this letter.
Love,
Tina
